Before the sunrise

I fell asleep early tonight. Being lack of sleep for the past week due to heavy workload, I dozed off at around 8.30 pm. Only to wake up at around 2.30 am feeling rather homesick. In the midst of the night, I sat here quietly appreciating the peace and calmness of this town called Cambridge. Sometimes, I do enjoy this kind of moment because it is really soothing for my mind, which otherwise is preoccupied with all the thought activities during daytime.

When I was young, I asked my parents naively, "What do people do when they grow up?" They told me that a responsible adult will do something productive like getting a meaningful job and support his family. I then continued, "How do I make money?" ... hahahah. I was 5 years old then and didn't understand the complexity of life.

When I was a teenager, people tend to tell me, "Enjoy your school years. Enjoy your carefree time. When you grow up, there will be many things to worry about. So, have fun now." I always thought at that time, "What is the big deal? I have my equal share of worries as a teenager."

Then, I reached adolescence. 1998. 20 years old. Many things changed. Financial crisis, the ulgy truth of inequality, the menace of absolute power and the unforgiving selfishness of human greed. I saw that all my life through personal and public lenses. But it reached the peak that year. I became resolved and decided to be who I am to be.

The recollection of all these events makes me cherish my memories. People who have come and gone in my life. My grandfather, my best friend, my loved ones.

Friends who know me know that I am a big Solvil Titus ads fan. The one by Chow Yun Fatt & Wu Chien Lien (fighter pilot), Andy Lau in Indonesia (Bengawan Solo), Anita Mui and Wang Chieh. I think Solvil Titus made a very special effort to capture the very essence of the human nature, spirit and love. One of the best is no doubt this short story:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qV1_AYLtpl0&feature=related


And good night again, as I am going to bed before the sunrise.